It started today… I felt a little chilled to the bone. My husband came home and I said, “Honey, would you please start a fire because I’m cold”. It’s all sinking in now {this was a few days ago}.
But it’s not giving me a sinking feeling, that’s good. God is good. The past few days could be compared to a whirlwind. There’s just been so much learning, growing, changing, and needing.
A strong storm of love mixed with my human fears and faults. Even some of my own sin mixed in. It’s healing and freeing and winding… this road named, “Confessing”.
It’s in the morning, I confess I still need Him. After all of my analyzing and feedback giving, I wake up and know that it’s still me that needs Him.
It’s like taking control of my right index finger {that finger always thinks it’s right}, turning it 180 different ways, to simply point it right back at me.
And now, instead of world troubles, sickness, marital growing pains, or children disobeying, I get to rest, while trading my sorrows for the joy of the Lord!
Rest in my storm, was found last night. I gave up trying to fix and went to bed instead. I laid down in hopes, it would help me surrender. I gave up and gave in, to the truth that my husband and I after 10 years of marriage don’t have this unity thing perfected yet. Right now I want to share, the “yet” may never come, and it’s good because now I know, I will always need Him {God}.
This truly is all for my good. Paul, James, and yes my Savior Jesus said, count it all joy even in the midst of the storm raging outward or within.
And it’s in the confessing our sins one to another that we will be healed {James 5:16}. My heart shouts out this very morning, with “GLORY BE”, yes, I will take Jesus’ invitation for more revealing and healing. I will accept that He is God, and I am not.
Freedom is found in surrender, somehow supernaturally.
I’m keeping last week’s “Weekly Word” up and running on David’s sweet Psalm 23.
So, this morning I confess and surrender. I’m seeing that just because I say with my mouth, I’m learning to “rest,” doesn’t mean I’m really resting.
Today, I want to confess the sin of doubting, the sin of simply trying on my own to get it right, when all I need is to trust and rest in the good shepherd.
This is all His grace, and it is sufficient!
“The whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God“, is found in believing He loves me through it.
That’s what He does best isn’t it {insert smile here}! And just perhaps, may I dare but say that it’s a possibility, that my human weakness is one of His favorites. This is when His power is made perfect! His power rests on me in my confession. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9
“The Lord is my shepherd, I have all that I need” {Psalm 23:1}. I’m loving the learning this morning in this voyage towards resting…
What about you my friend?
It says, where two or more are gathered, He will be here {Matthew 18:20}.
Feel free to leave comments, questions and your own thoughts below. I’ll leave you with one of my all time favorite verses. This is my prayer this morning for me, and for you, in our journey towards Him, the great I AM!
My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me”, And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming”. ~ Psalm 27:8 NLT
Will you meet me this morning at the feet of Jesus?
I love that translation of Psalm 27:8. How beautiful. For this is what God desires, communion with His precious daughter. Be blessed today, Amy!
Thank you Kim! I honestly had struggles this morning. He is helping me let go and learn more about resting. I’m so thankful tonight! Thank you my friend!
Amy, I love your honesty and your desire to draw near to the Lord in all your circumstances. I have been thinking how to summarize my blog and my speaking and writing ministry–my life even–and it’s this: we can do nothing in our own strength. I am living proof! So glad God is reminding you of this critical truth as He does for me every day. God bless you and your family, Amy.
Good Evening Melanie,
Thank you for your encouragement too! May we learn how to do our ministries better, as we get to know Him better. I have the sneaking suspicion that we are even realizing now that they are not “our” ministries any longer, but His. Less of us and more of Him… AMEN sister! Thank you for sharing with me.
“I’m seeing that just because I say with my mouth, I’m learning to “rest,” doesn’t mean I’m really resting.”
I could have written those very words! I am not the best at resting. I am still learning how. How to rest in Him.
I love, love, love that version of Psalm 27:8. So glad you shared that. I can just see the Lord watching me run back and forth, ping-ponging all over the place (physically, mentally, emotionally), His head going back and forth like watching a tennis match. And He, seeing how weary and worn I am, with love spoken in every word says, “Come and talk with me.” Oh, that I would always respond quickly that I am coming…and then actually come.
Blessings to you as you rest in Him.
Kimberly,
I can also relate to the ping ponging kind of thinking! Praise God that He never gives up on us. He loves us through all of our self mess. Blessings sister in your continual quest for His rest!
Thank you for sharing in this with me. It’s so encouraging to know you and I are in the same boat!
confess and surrender.
Hmm… yes. May this be the cry of my heart and the thing that keep my knees bowed low before Him.
Thank you for sharing your words and beautiful heart with me Natasha. God always blesses me through your writing and sharing! I’m bowing my knee to our loving Savior tonight with you sister. Thank you for stopping by!
“It is the very nature and being of God to delight in communicating Himself. God has no selfishness. God keeps nothing to Himself, God’s nature is to be always giving.”
You are right Amy, “we have heard it before, but we need to hear it very definitely-the condition of God’s blessing is absolute surrender of all into His hands.”
Once again my God keeps nothing to Himself – God does not ask me to give perfect surrender in my strength, or power of my will; God is willing to work it in me.
“It is God that worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure” (Philippians 2:13)
Let me join you Amy in my prayer today:
“My God, I am willing that You should make me willing.”
May God’s peace fill you today
Aunt Deb,
It means so much that you stopped by to share! Thank you for your encouragement. I love your prayer! Yes, Lord… please make us willing, each day, by grace. I love you.
Hello my friend! The saying that kept on coming to me was, “We are weak,but he is strong!” When we are at our bottom we can’t help but look up! I cannot imagine going through this life without our loving Savior!! Sure there are days when we think we can “do it ourselves” but that day ends and we look back on it and say, “well, that didn’t go as I planned!” Thank you for your honesty! Praying for peace and healing!
Hello Miss Sarah!
YES! It’s a very good thing for me that He is STRONG! He is teaching us so much isn’t He!? Thanks for coming by to share sister.
Thanks Amy. I’ve been married for 32 years, and still need God’s help with my marriage every day. And you are right, that’s a good thing.
Thanks for sharing.
Kathy
Thank you Kathy, for sharing back with me. It means so much! Congratulations on 32 years filled with God’s grace! I’m working on 10 years right now.
Be blessed in His presence today sister.